last night was the full moon gathering i mentioned earlier, and i have to say i am ashamed of myself for calling it a 'hippiefest' and being skeptical about it. you have to understand, i have been to some seriously flaky drum circles before and i wasn't sure what to expect.
in stark contrast to those past events, however, last night was absolutely beautiful. the setting itself is amazing--this gorgeous secret garden in the middle of the duckpond--and the women who were there were... real. totally 100% real. the way i imagine the wise women of lost ages.
we didn't do much (i left just as the chanting was beginning), but even just going around the circle and hearing a few words from everyone was a deeply connective experience. i felt a very familiar energy from one (also pregnant) girl in particular, but overall they were all powerful, intentioned, and inspiringly serene.
little bean reacted to being there... i closed my eyes and immediately noticed the bubble/shield was rotating vertically "forward" from my spine, and it kept it up for a few minutes. ((i keep wanting to call LB a girl but i need to not do that!)) at one point when others were speaking i closed my eyes and saw this silver flash of light sweep in circles around us, right through all of our heads as if someone had an energetic needle and thread and just beaded us all together and pulled the thread tight, straight up into the sky. i saw that a few times.
it's really amazing to finally feel an outlet for this n e e d for expressing and sharing true feminine energy... not since bellydancing with maja and my sister (years ago) have i felt this kind of inner wisdom bubbling out and actually having a place to go. it's almost overwhelming. i find it hard to let go and be my(inner)self around other people sometimes, and that is frustrating to me. it's as if i become shy or uncomfortable even though i'm not and have no reason to be. so to be able to not care, to quiet that part of myself, is something i really need to take advantage of as much as possible. the inner rhiannon is way more at-peace and wise than the face i put out there most of the time. i guess we all do that to a certain degree... maybe...
so yeah, it was awesome. can't wait till the next full moon...
in stark contrast to those past events, however, last night was absolutely beautiful. the setting itself is amazing--this gorgeous secret garden in the middle of the duckpond--and the women who were there were... real. totally 100% real. the way i imagine the wise women of lost ages.
we didn't do much (i left just as the chanting was beginning), but even just going around the circle and hearing a few words from everyone was a deeply connective experience. i felt a very familiar energy from one (also pregnant) girl in particular, but overall they were all powerful, intentioned, and inspiringly serene.
little bean reacted to being there... i closed my eyes and immediately noticed the bubble/shield was rotating vertically "forward" from my spine, and it kept it up for a few minutes. ((i keep wanting to call LB a girl but i need to not do that!)) at one point when others were speaking i closed my eyes and saw this silver flash of light sweep in circles around us, right through all of our heads as if someone had an energetic needle and thread and just beaded us all together and pulled the thread tight, straight up into the sky. i saw that a few times.
it's really amazing to finally feel an outlet for this n e e d for expressing and sharing true feminine energy... not since bellydancing with maja and my sister (years ago) have i felt this kind of inner wisdom bubbling out and actually having a place to go. it's almost overwhelming. i find it hard to let go and be my(inner)self around other people sometimes, and that is frustrating to me. it's as if i become shy or uncomfortable even though i'm not and have no reason to be. so to be able to not care, to quiet that part of myself, is something i really need to take advantage of as much as possible. the inner rhiannon is way more at-peace and wise than the face i put out there most of the time. i guess we all do that to a certain degree... maybe...
so yeah, it was awesome. can't wait till the next full moon...
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