last night i had another dream about having the baby... it was on-time, not early like the last one (i don't think i blogged about it).
in the dream i woke up and realized i had slept through the birth and the baby was already clothed and separated from me, and i was pissed and asking for him--it was a boy--and really confused why i had been asleep... i was so upset i missed the experience, again. and that he was handled right away by people who weren't me or matt. i kept thinking "what about the skin-to-skin contact?!" and getting upset. ah, dream logic.
so that's the second time i've dreamed of a boy baby whose birth i "slept through" or just couldn't remember. i can think of a few reasons for this:
1) since i don't know what birth will feel like, my brain doesn't want to guess and so conveniently makes me just not remember in the dreams,
2) i am having a premonition of an anesthetized birth,
3) my deepest fears are simply expressing themselves in my dreams.
if i find out it's a girl, #2 will not worry me at all! lol.
in the dream i woke up and realized i had slept through the birth and the baby was already clothed and separated from me, and i was pissed and asking for him--it was a boy--and really confused why i had been asleep... i was so upset i missed the experience, again. and that he was handled right away by people who weren't me or matt. i kept thinking "what about the skin-to-skin contact?!" and getting upset. ah, dream logic.
so that's the second time i've dreamed of a boy baby whose birth i "slept through" or just couldn't remember. i can think of a few reasons for this:
1) since i don't know what birth will feel like, my brain doesn't want to guess and so conveniently makes me just not remember in the dreams,
2) i am having a premonition of an anesthetized birth,
3) my deepest fears are simply expressing themselves in my dreams.
if i find out it's a girl, #2 will not worry me at all! lol.
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