september mama

(some awkward sentences, i think "laura" is not a native english-speaker)

from naturalmomstalkradio.com:

...Out of millions of women that specific baby has chosen specifically you. So, the main mission during pregnancy would be for our mother to be herself, which means not to be concentrating on the baby she has never seen yet. Of course, she will have her thoughts visiting the baby, but it is her look onto life that she should develop. She should be — I remember when I was pregnant, I wanted to be at my best of my best. Maybe I was 10% of my best, but at least I was striving. I was enthusiastic about discovering even who I was and dedicating that to the making of the baby.

Carrie Lauth: Hmm… Well, this is all very fascinating. So, tell us more about what this means for a mom. If a mom is sitting here listening and she is pregnant, what advice do you have for her? It sounds a little intimidating. I mean would she be concerned about every little thing that she is thinking or every situation that she found herself in? What advice would you have for her?

Laura Uplinger: I understand what you are saying. Yes, maybe the first then advice would be relax woman, enjoy, be happy. Joy is certainly one of the most beautiful things we can offer life to ourselves even if we were not pregnant. When situations are difficult and we are pregnant, it is also wonderful to know that that baby is a companion of yours. It is not a one-way street. Our baby also protects us. So many women — I mean during the wars in Europe I had read a lot of that, but also recently I have heard of women who were pregnant and were able to say that baby was telling me that everything was going to be okay. I could trust and relax. So, open up to your baby.

There are messages also from the womb. Many say that the consciousness of each child is not in the body. The body has been made, maybe even visited by the child as far as consciousness, but as far as our consciousness is not complete in our body, the mother should be very happy of her power over the formation of this body. Yes, it is intimidating. Everything is intimidating when it is well done. I mean I can imagine a sculptor starting a sculpture, or a painter starting a painting, or a writer in front of a white page. Creation is intimidating.

When we form something, it is intimidating, but we can take delight. Maybe the strongest quality for pregnancy, labor and mothering and parenting is surrender. That is something that we, women, love doing when we surrender to a mystery, to a force, to beauty. I believe this conversation we are having is being heard by some mothers who are having kind of a confirmation, their intuition had already talked on that. We were fetuses one day. We were embryos. We went through that. We were born. So, it awakens in us just to speak about this subject a lot of memories even if they are subconscious, they have such an echo in us. I am sure that some are saying “Aha! See, I knew that there was something and everybody around me was making fun of me.”

Carrie Lauth: Yeah. My sister always said that she knew the day after she had conceived the child and everybody would say that she was crazy.

Laura Uplinger: Exactly. Exactly. There are dreams. There are physical sensations. It is a huge science. I would not be into this field if there was not therapy for those who had severe traumas but I also know how much healing we get through a good pregnancy. Then when I hold my child in my hand, a newborn child or a 1-month-old child, the little one I was at that same age is also awakening me. A lot that I will do for that child, maybe that was never done to me because my parents were too busy or this was not the fashion like we would not breastfeed and things like that in the 1950s.

Well, a lot that I will do still can transform this child I was once. I know this is a bit philosophical but it as if there was no past. There is an eternal present. At anytime, I can assess the state of my being and repair, re-edit. Those scars are not like the scars on our skin. They would be like when I put my hand in the water and I take it out, you do not see where the hole was anymore. There was no scar. So is the psyche of the human being. So, psychologically, any gesture, any effort we make towards the well-being of a baby, we also make it towards the baby we were once at that age and that is beautiful.

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isn't it though?