i have a home visit tomorrow, unexpectedly, which sort of amuses me. they're telling me left and right that i can't have a homebirth, but the midwife is going to see me at home. ??? at least i don't have to drive...
so i'm going to talk with her about what i'm thinking; i.e., thanks but no thanks, i just don't see it working out with the birth center for me. there are too many reasons they could (and will) say no at the last minute, and i don't want to deal with that. i am meeting with a new midwife on monday night whose reputation is a little less by-the-books, so if we click and she's ok with all my "complications," i'm going to release sarah from my obnoxious need for care. if it doesn't seem like a good situation, i'm going to continue my care with sarah and plan for an unassisted birth, just in case.
i've been considering the idea of contacting a midwifery student--one with a LOT of births under her belt--to see if there is any interest in being an alarm system, if you will. someone to yell "hey wait that's not normal" if something comes up that we might miss. my thoughts are that as long as one doesn't have a license to worry about losing, and knows she is just there as an advisor, there should be no risk whatsoever. and she might get the bonus of watching an unassisted birth, or even saving a life should the situation call for intervention. just an idea.
i'm anxious to know whether little mister is vertex yet or not. i've hesitated on doing the slant board just in case he DID turn (i think he might have) because i don't want to un-turn him by accident. i need to play music in my pelvis tonight though, since it can't hurt.
unrelated note-to-self: i am feeling a need to post about birth trauma. about the aftermath of unwanted surgical birth. this is coming from nowhere but the urge is really strong so i think it's time to reassess rowan's delivery one last time before i am fully ready to deal with the nameless baby's birth...
so i'm going to talk with her about what i'm thinking; i.e., thanks but no thanks, i just don't see it working out with the birth center for me. there are too many reasons they could (and will) say no at the last minute, and i don't want to deal with that. i am meeting with a new midwife on monday night whose reputation is a little less by-the-books, so if we click and she's ok with all my "complications," i'm going to release sarah from my obnoxious need for care. if it doesn't seem like a good situation, i'm going to continue my care with sarah and plan for an unassisted birth, just in case.
i've been considering the idea of contacting a midwifery student--one with a LOT of births under her belt--to see if there is any interest in being an alarm system, if you will. someone to yell "hey wait that's not normal" if something comes up that we might miss. my thoughts are that as long as one doesn't have a license to worry about losing, and knows she is just there as an advisor, there should be no risk whatsoever. and she might get the bonus of watching an unassisted birth, or even saving a life should the situation call for intervention. just an idea.
i'm anxious to know whether little mister is vertex yet or not. i've hesitated on doing the slant board just in case he DID turn (i think he might have) because i don't want to un-turn him by accident. i need to play music in my pelvis tonight though, since it can't hurt.
unrelated note-to-self: i am feeling a need to post about birth trauma. about the aftermath of unwanted surgical birth. this is coming from nowhere but the urge is really strong so i think it's time to reassess rowan's delivery one last time before i am fully ready to deal with the nameless baby's birth...
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