i have an announcement to make:
i am sick of thinking about birth and pregnancy and babies.
i just want to finish being pregnant, knit a few things, have the baby and be done with it. i'm tired of blood pressure checks, urinalysis, vaginal exercises, breast concerns, birthing positions, vitamins, alcohol-free, and all the other shit that goes along with being a child-bearer! my world has been consumed with all of this since september 3, 2008. rowan is finally not a baby anymore and here i am, pregnant anyway.
don't get me wrong--yes i love birth, yes i am 'in it' with all my heart and will continue to pursue its mysteries either in career or hobby for the rest of my life, but for f*ck's sake i need a break! GAHHH!
i figure i am just feeling fussed-over and annoyed with it. this pregnancy is SO nonchalant that i expect everyone else to realize i don't need anything. i don't need to be monitored and i'm not interested in splurging my feelings to a maternity professional. i just want to be left alone; eventually the baby will come out and we'll go from there. it's not even that i don't want to be pregnant, per se, i just don't want all the fussing. (it's not even that anyone is really fussing, i just FEEL fussed-at by the fact that i have appointments and all the rest of it. i'm totally overreacting to nothing.) ((how many times can one use the word "fuss" in one paragraph?? apparently, many.))
at this point i am not even sure what i'm complaining about. o fickleness, pregnancy is thy name.
i just want some bloody sake.
i am sick of thinking about birth and pregnancy and babies.
i just want to finish being pregnant, knit a few things, have the baby and be done with it. i'm tired of blood pressure checks, urinalysis, vaginal exercises, breast concerns, birthing positions, vitamins, alcohol-free, and all the other shit that goes along with being a child-bearer! my world has been consumed with all of this since september 3, 2008. rowan is finally not a baby anymore and here i am, pregnant anyway.
don't get me wrong--yes i love birth, yes i am 'in it' with all my heart and will continue to pursue its mysteries either in career or hobby for the rest of my life, but for f*ck's sake i need a break! GAHHH!
i figure i am just feeling fussed-over and annoyed with it. this pregnancy is SO nonchalant that i expect everyone else to realize i don't need anything. i don't need to be monitored and i'm not interested in splurging my feelings to a maternity professional. i just want to be left alone; eventually the baby will come out and we'll go from there. it's not even that i don't want to be pregnant, per se, i just don't want all the fussing. (it's not even that anyone is really fussing, i just FEEL fussed-at by the fact that i have appointments and all the rest of it. i'm totally overreacting to nothing.) ((how many times can one use the word "fuss" in one paragraph?? apparently, many.))
at this point i am not even sure what i'm complaining about. o fickleness, pregnancy is thy name.
i just want some bloody sake.
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