the past two days have been quite a new and not exactly pleasant experience. i think i am in labor, actually, but at this rate it will be another 4 days before things get serious enough to produce a baby!
saturday night i decided i needed to go sit in the hot tub at the gym, so i did. while i was in there i had a nice little meditation session and tried to communicate that whenever she's ready it's cool, she can just get things going and i'll do what i need to do. i've finished everything i care about around the house and we're just waiting, so what the heck. i was in there for about an hour, and i left feeling really good. then i met matt at a coffee shop and hung out for a while. on my way home, however, in the car, i started feeling a strange new pain in my belly and thought it might be a weak contraction (this was about 930). the same feeling came and went until around 1130 when i went to bed, but i wasn't sure what it was so i kept telling matt not to get his hopes up! he was awake until 330 with anxiety anyway. i slept great.
then yesterday i woke up and felt like total garbage. vaguely nauseous and with some kind of indigestion, plus i just felt groggy and tired... the whole freaking day was like that. i napped off and on between running errands and then we had dinner with karen and john, throughout which i was more nauseous than i had been. came home and slept some more, then i woke up around 930 and finally threw up everything i had eaten, felt fine for a little while, and went back to bed. after that i can't be sure how many times i got up, took baths, and sat in the rocking chair before i finally gave in and drank some pepto and crashed on the couch. it was a horrible, horrible night. i WAS having contractions off and on, but it was very hard to tell the difference between them and the weird painful gas-like sensation in my abdomen. is it pre-labor or just something i ate?! no idea. but today is not much better, though thankfully i'm not quite nauseous.
i now understand at least a little bit of why labor sucks so much... it's just uncomfortable (and relentless). i don't want to eat, but i feel like i might throw up again if i don't, and i'm exhausted from last night but i can't sleep anymore because i'm now associating discomfort with sleeping. blech. all i can say is thank the gods my house is clean and i have nothing to do today! i'm going back to the gym for the hot tub momentarily and then i will probably try to sleep for the majority of the day, though i should really make a soup or something if i can manage to rouse the energy.
if this is the beginnings of labor, i wish it would get on with it! i've felt great up until yesterday, but i don't think i can take another day of this whiny ick. bring on the real stuff and let's get going already. ugh.
saturday night i decided i needed to go sit in the hot tub at the gym, so i did. while i was in there i had a nice little meditation session and tried to communicate that whenever she's ready it's cool, she can just get things going and i'll do what i need to do. i've finished everything i care about around the house and we're just waiting, so what the heck. i was in there for about an hour, and i left feeling really good. then i met matt at a coffee shop and hung out for a while. on my way home, however, in the car, i started feeling a strange new pain in my belly and thought it might be a weak contraction (this was about 930). the same feeling came and went until around 1130 when i went to bed, but i wasn't sure what it was so i kept telling matt not to get his hopes up! he was awake until 330 with anxiety anyway. i slept great.
then yesterday i woke up and felt like total garbage. vaguely nauseous and with some kind of indigestion, plus i just felt groggy and tired... the whole freaking day was like that. i napped off and on between running errands and then we had dinner with karen and john, throughout which i was more nauseous than i had been. came home and slept some more, then i woke up around 930 and finally threw up everything i had eaten, felt fine for a little while, and went back to bed. after that i can't be sure how many times i got up, took baths, and sat in the rocking chair before i finally gave in and drank some pepto and crashed on the couch. it was a horrible, horrible night. i WAS having contractions off and on, but it was very hard to tell the difference between them and the weird painful gas-like sensation in my abdomen. is it pre-labor or just something i ate?! no idea. but today is not much better, though thankfully i'm not quite nauseous.
i now understand at least a little bit of why labor sucks so much... it's just uncomfortable (and relentless). i don't want to eat, but i feel like i might throw up again if i don't, and i'm exhausted from last night but i can't sleep anymore because i'm now associating discomfort with sleeping. blech. all i can say is thank the gods my house is clean and i have nothing to do today! i'm going back to the gym for the hot tub momentarily and then i will probably try to sleep for the majority of the day, though i should really make a soup or something if i can manage to rouse the energy.
if this is the beginnings of labor, i wish it would get on with it! i've felt great up until yesterday, but i don't think i can take another day of this whiny ick. bring on the real stuff and let's get going already. ugh.
Posts
Post a Comment