blah. today is yucky.
poor matt was in agony all night with a sudden ache in one of his pointless wisdom teeth (which i dearly hope he has had pulled by now)... he spent the night in the ER all alone and then took a pill which probably made him dizzy and nauseous.
it's my birthday, but i don't think matt knows that, even if he is conscious--i haven't made much of it this year, so i can understand if he forgot.
maybe it's just that i'm tired for having been awake all night and worrying about matt, or maybe its the walking-on-glass-barefoot dream, but i am REALLY whiny today. twice i have started crying for no reason. makes me worry about the little bean, kind of. could i be "pregnantly" emotional already or should i be concerned? ugh.
i just feel sad and listless. what a lame birthday.
so i started a registry already to make sure i keep track of the random things i am interested in, and i went back to edit it today after deciding many of the things i was planning to buy can more easily and cheaply be made.
some of my favorite DIY baby stuff:
the hanging baby cradle (for bedside usage)
this handmade crib (for when baby is older--there are some design flaws)
...and of course i will be making the clothes, mostly out of old tshirts and/or sweaters of matt's and mine. i'm going to make the diaper wipes, the bibs, the hats, the socks, and everything i can possibly make out of things i already have lying around. i thought about making the diapers too, but the reality is i will get frustrated with all that elastic, so i'm opting to buy the covers and use the little cloth prefolds inside. i'll be sure to buy handmade from WAHM (new acronym for me: work-at-home-moms).
so far, if we make our own crib-things, it looks like the most expensive item on the registry is going to be the car seat or potentially the high chair. so that's cool... everything else is cheap enough for my broke family to manange :)
the most dire item on that whole registry is the lowe's gift cards, however. so much needs to be done to the house to make it baby-friendly (or more importantly, mama-rhiannon-friendly). cabinets to paint, walls to finish, bookshelves to make, floors to replace...
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three words: raspberry leaf tea.
without it i would be a sicky, whiny, mess of a human! it's a great tonic for the uterus and female system and totally safe during pregnancy (potentially even making for an easier labor), with an added bonus of wiping out nausea completely. i feel -almost- normal now. just tired and boob-sore, mostly.
little bean has been quiet lately... i haven't picked up much. it seems busy or preoccupied, which is understandable i suppose. i have been having wild dreams pretty much nightly, however. it seems like it's either anger/jealousy, crazy sex, or long, drawn-out narratives. last night it was all about 15-foot alligators and missing rainy-day appointments at the birth center.
i think i've started to get hungrier now too. still not loving food, but needing to eat more often.
tomorrow is my birthday :)
ok, so i'm doing terribly at being raw, let alone even vegan these days, BUT i am eating 99% organic and listening to my body. so i'm allowing the slips for now, until i start to like all foods again. then i'll be strict.
can i just say that after 8 years of not eating yogurt, IT TASTES LIKE CHEESECAKE. holy crap, it's awesome. i bought the stonyfield organic french vanilla fat-free (?) "probiotic" and it's like eating gooey cheesecake. *yum*
on a totally unrelated note: i think i'm developing TMJ... my right jaw is not willing to open very wide lately. it sucks.
totally unrelated note #2: i have been pretty good about doing my kegels, and i seem to be getting better at them already.
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last night i had another nightmare based almost entirely in a furious jealousy (this makes 3). i dreamed that matt was really interested in a girl in his class, to the extend that he started hiding things from me and chatting with her secretly, and me here pregnant... in the dream i slapped him (that makes twice) because i was so angry i didn't know what else to do. i started having feelings along the lines of "does he want us? does he care that i am having his baby?" and it was baaaaaad. i woke up so relieved that it was imagined. i don't know what's up with these jealous, angry dreams. and the chick wasn't even pretty.
my lovely doula mama cass gave me some raspberry leaf tea (among many other things) and i started drinking it yesterday... and magically i am FAR less nauseous than i was last week. the past two days have actually been OK--not fantastic, but not bad like before--and i'm pretty impressed. could be the tea or just me getting better, but i'm not about to stop drinking it now.
also, i am REALLY sentimental these days. i can't even read about birth without crying. i went to
http://www.birthingfromwithin.com and read some articles, and man i was taken by surprise with the tears! sheesh. apparently i'm starting to get emotional... watch out.
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since little bean is literally bean-sized right now and i can get no physical cues as to who this thing is, but i am getting mental/emotional impressions, i'm going to make notes so that i can see if my initial impressions were right once bean is fully baby-sized and kicking in there.
so, i have a vague feeling that bean is a girl, which i've said before. in addition to that, it feels very quiet and gentle, sort of a soothing presence, not too wild or impulsive. a little bit petite or dainty, but not necessarily weak or lacking stamina. understated is a good word.
even my symptoms are following the same pattern... i'm not violently vomiting (at all) or having wild cravings or anything... everything has been subtle yet persistent in a steadily-increasing way.
sounds like a taurus, to me. again i can't help but wonder if i'm projecting..?
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